Barely Holding On

My great grandma just passed. We all knew it was coming very soon. It still hits me though that is was way too soon. I've been alternating from crying my eyes out and feeling numb. I'm trying to keep busy and stay distracted, but I'm barely holding on to my sanity. I want to yell and scream and break things. Why did she have to go so soon? She's with my great grandpa though. I know she really misses him. I know I do. I hope she's at peace where she is. I know she's at peace where she is. She was always a happy and caring woman that I know couldn't be anywhere but heaven. I don't know if I believe in heaven, but if it exists she's definitely there. Maybe sitting with her husband and watching down on us all hoping we can make it through this. She wouldn't want me crying, I know this, but I can't help thinking of all of my memories of her and wishing we could make more. I'll see her again one day. I love you Gigi. I miss you already...